SORRY THAT I SPEAK MY MIND

At the age of 25 I am now, I started to realize how important my family is. And, finding one man that can be your lover cum best friend and also your savior is as vital as finding the right beliefs in life. Do i need more people that really involve in my life? Do i need a group of best friends that help me choosing which tee should I buy from the shopping complex just for the sake of making decision which is accepted by them? Do I need to hang around every week with few girls gossiping about others and latest fashion which I can't afford to just for the sake of to fit in the society? Do i really need to live with people whom their opinions are really important for me to listen (according to them) and whilst mine is just piece of sh**? If you ask me 5 years ago, my answer would be YES, YES, and YES ! But, realizing and through an iota ounce of my experience I totally believe now that I don't have to do that anymore. Hence my answer would NO, NO and NO.  

I might be harsh, I might be too direct with my words but then again, when you do something wrong just right in front of me or you do something that irritates me and beloved ones, I would loveee to tell you off! That's me. I'm sorry that I speak my mind but then again, I believe what's wrong is wrong. Still there are times where I think of this kind of stuff (dealing with people, friendship and etc) I would blame myself for not being patient enough with this kind of people, maybe I should hold on a little bit and perhaps things won't go that far in which I don't have to tell them off and they won't be offended by me. But then again, I believe I should have told them, because I care for them. And, if not me someone else's will. So its okay, given the character as a garang and jahat as they said - as long as I am not creating stories or drama or badmouthing behind their back. I am just telling them what they did is wrong. 

There are times i feel lonely, but come to think of it I have enough friends at my work place even we're not that close, I have few housemates which I can exchange my ideas with, I have Kamil who will always listen to my stories, problems and most importantly I have my precious family which will never leave me alone. 

Having to deal with people especially girls/women it is the most difficult thing EVER in the world. You do nice things that benefited them sure they'll love you ! But when you do nice things that don't give them anything, they started drama. They call you fake, they try to find your weaknesses, they badmouthing on you and you fight ! The more you talk to a girl/woman the more dangerous you'll face in future. 

So, I after several brainstorming I made by myself and listening to my mom and sister advise, I believe I am no longer in the state of having to please anyone except for people that really matter. But, that doesn't mean I will start being kurang ajar to everyone, NO. I am going to be as fair as possible and not getting attached too much over a cheap friendship people offer me. I am better this way and that saves my feelings too !